Room 134

religion is something that is unknown yet still important to me. I don't feel satisfied taking any one stance on the subject. I sort of believe several things that contradict each other and can never make up my mind. I don't think this is something i can ever come to a definitive answer on but i will likely find an answer that suits me through more thought and life experience.

I guess my future is the unkown that is most important to me. I mean, I would like to know if I get into the college of my choice, or do the proffesion that i think of. I want to know if I get married or live somewhere that I love. That kind of stuff is important to me. Thats what i live for right now. In reality something is unkown usually because it cant be solved in the first place. In this situation, choices are the only attempt to reach a future goal. Our choices that we make pave our future and thats the real basis of our future. Of course, the mystery is not solved until it occurs since it is the future. We can't read mind, or see history. All we can do is wait and see what happens and hope that it all goes well.

I want to know my true family history. As I'm adopted, it is very difficult to find out any information from my parents about my birth parents seeing as they don't know much. I'd like to know as much as I can, and there are plenty of means of doing that particularly with the power of the internet. However, I have little time to do it, and I am really rather nervous about investigating to far, because I'm afraid of what I may bump in to. On the flip-side, it may help me in the course of the rest of my life.

I think that the biggest think that is unknown to me but is important is my future in general. More specifically, the near future in which I hope to go to college. theres nothing really tricky about "resolving this mystery", because right now all I can do is make myself appealing as possible to the colleges I want to go to. I participate in a bunch of different activities that not only do I enjoy, but I hope will make me a good candidate for these schools that I want to go to. I know that probably no matter where I go I'll love college and I'll be able to do what I want to do after college and possibly after grad school, but it's the worst thing not knowing whether I'll be where I WANT to go. College is really important to me for the same reasons that it's important to most college-bound high school students, and it's something that has really always been a part of my life, even when I wasn't aware of it. Now that I know that what happens to me is mostly in my hands, I'm doing whatever I can to get where I want to go and to resolve the mystery.

One thing I do not know right now that I want to is simply just about my future. I am reaching the point in my life where I am going to be making decisions that could dictate what happens with the rest of my life (most predominant at the moment would be the college decision which I am working towards later in the year). I don't really feel good or bad about this, I just would like to be able to know which way would end up the best. It is hard to know this. For example, my brother thought he would hate where he is going to college but he loves it. I am just worried I will have the opposite happen. My attempts to resolve this are primarily just trying to figure what I want to do, what kind of place I want to be at and by doing as well in school as I can so I have many options with the time comes. Also, I am just going to look at each place and just hope I pick the right one since that is about all I can do when it really comes down to it.

I don't know where I'm going.
I don't have a plan for my life, and I have no clue where I'm heading.
None of my ambitions seem valid.
I'm taking no steps to find out where I'm heading, though.
I won't sit around and stress out about my life.
I don't know where I'm going but I know where I've been.
Things will work themselves out.
There is no point in planning too meticulously for the future because things change every day.
I'll figure out what I need to figure out when it needs to be figured out.
Until then I go where the wind takes me.

I don't know what i am going to be like a few years from now. Like where i will be going to school, who im going to be friends with, what job im going to have. Things like that. That stuff is important to me, but i really don't want to know right now. Im not making an attempt to find out at the moment. Theres also not really any reason to want to know. im sure everything will fit together in the end. i'd rather be surprised anyways...

My future, and also much of my adopted sister's life is unknown and important to me. I didn't know my sister until I was 10, and the first 5 years of her life are a complete mystery, besides the fact that she was living in an orphanage in Russia. This is unsettling, but does not affect me in a huge way. I guess it would affect her more. Also, there isn't really anything I can do about this- A) logistically it's nearly impossible to know and B) the information might be upsetting. In this case, it's better left unknown. Same for my future, there is no way of knowing what I will be doing and no way to resolve the mystery of what is yet to be.

Something that is unknown to me is just the whole college situation that all the juniors are going through. It is very important to me because where i go could determine the path for the rest of my life. I can not lie, i am nervous about the whole process and am frecuently asking myself, "Am i doing good enough?". The process isnt really a mystery because i know that i will go to college, but the hard work that needs to be put in can only be done by me. Therefore i am working hard and doing the best i can and maybe eventually i will go to a good and successful school.

What is unknown yet important to me? I could answer this question with a very long list, but the underlying thing that I truly wish I understood is the purpose of life. Man has investigated this subject for many generations only to come up with no concrete answers. When I think about life in a very broad scale, I find it to be this wish-washy set of scenarios that just play out one after the other. Thinking about something as significant as life in that way really makes me want some more answers. I'm no philosopher, so I figured taking a philosophy class would help me with this particular dilemma, but even having a deep philosophical debate does not help me.

I have a few things that are unknown that are important to me. For example, if I will be successful in college. I want to be a nurse and play field hockey in college but I don't know if I'll be able to balance both. Although this isn't the most important thing that is unknown to me, it seems important now because that time is very close. I can attempt to continue the recruiting process and look into the workload of a nursing major, but I won't know if I can do both until I experience it. Something else that really annoys me that I don't know is who I'll marry. That sounds really cheesy but it's something really important in life. I know that there is someone out there for every person, but I'd like to know who that person is. I really can't make any attempt to solve this issue because I can't go out saying "FUTURE HUSBAND WHERE ARE YOU?!?" because that would be silly. I have so much time left until that point in my life rolls around but its still something to think about.

The "unknown" in my life right now is whether or not I will be accepted to and attend the college of my choice. I have been diligently working for many years now to improve my final resume for college, so that, when the time comes for me to submit my application, I might be undoubtedly accepted. Though, because of the rigor and competitiveness of the application process, I sometimes find myself doubting that I will not be accepted. I hate it when I despair, because this means that there is likeliness that my weakness can be my own downfall. Therefore, I try to overcome this by progressing positively toward my goal in the hopes of accomplishing it, remaining determined.

Something that is unknown to me is just the whole college situation that all the juniors are going through. It is very important to me because where i go could determine the path for the rest of my life. I can not lie, i am nervous about the whole process and am frecuently asking myself, "Am i doing good enough?". The process isnt really a mystery because i know that i will go to college, but the hard work that needs to be put in can only be done by me. Therefore i am working hard and doing the best i can and maybe eventually i will go to a good and successful school.

This is probably due to the fact that I am just a teenager but it is hard to answer what I "don't know" in just a single journal entry. One question could just be what I strive for as a human...This may seem philosophical but the answer would explain what my fundamental goals are as a human. Am I just working for more material possessions and an easier life? Or am I working to leave an influence on others in the world who are just as temporary as I am... Either way, I do know that too many strive for things in the world that are temporary and ignore what few things are permanent. My attempts at solving this mystery are only going to be solved as I grow and become more experienced throughout life.