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Dear Journal,

I have a lot to reflect on. Arthur and I were able to spend some time alone together in the forest as Pearl was playing, and I came to some realizations. Dimmesdale seems to be happy again, and as do I. We are happy together. While in discussion, I threw the scarlet letter to the ground. At that moment, I felt a sense of happiness and confidence swell over me. I let my hair down the way it used to be, and was nearly unable to let the smile off my face. Thinking of Arthur and Pearl getting to know each other brings the most sincere happiness to my heart.

Unfortunately, Pearl has continued her suspicions when surrounded by Arthur and me together. As she was coming back towards us in the words, she immediately realized that I had taken my letter off. She demanded that I put it back on before she came back to us. She has an infatuation with my letter that I have yet to come to a conclusion about. I put it back, and felt that I was immediately back to the old, sad person that I had been these previous years. She came back to me, kissed me, and kissed my scarlet letter. While I have not yet told her that the minister is her father, I have a feeling that she has already figured that out. She asked if he would accompany us into town, hand in hand. When he refused, she backed off from him and went to the brook to wash off the kiss he had given her upon her forehead.

Arthur went to Roger to tell him that he wished to be taken off the medications. There was undoubtedly a sense of awkwardness among them during this conversation.

The trek to Europe will better our lives together. Not only will we be secluded, but we'll start a new life in a place where Dimmesdale's health will be taken good care of. I know the crew of the ship we're taking, which has facilitated our arrangements. Pearl seems to also have an infatuation with Dimmesdale publicly expressing the love for us that he will in seclusion. I assumed their relationship would only improve with our trip to Europe.

However, while waiting for the ship to arrive, I overheard that Chillingworth would be on the ship too, for it was in need of a doctor. To make things worse, Roger said that he was a member of our party. This has completely ruined every bit of our plan to separate ourselves and live happily ever after. I worry as to what will happen, because Chillingworth must be aware of what the purpose of this trip was. He has ruined any chance of what we had hoped for. When I looked to him after hearing the news, he gave me a smirk - the kind of smirk that only evil men give.